What the fucking fuck

I'm in denver colorado. I'm attending Regis university.

I am the ambassador to the student government for the ASIA club.
I am taking 18 credits of classes.
I owe the school over $3000.
I work 2 jobs, and I am getting another one.
I have $50 to my name only thanks to a friend.
I am enrolled in the honors program.
I feel like people here don't know how to treat me.
I don't know if I can make any close friends.
I want to learn Japanese and Chinese.
I want to visit the entire fucking world.
I am normally a low stress person.
I am so stressed that it is hard to breathe.
I am overweight.
I am sick.
I am terrible at Tony Hawk.
I feel like working towards my goals leaves me no time to live.
My best friend for as long as I can remember stopped talking to me as soon as he found out I was moving.
I am brutally honest.
I am learning violin.
I want to find a release somehow.