Another Long Day

I've had a long day. The title makes that extra obvious. W00t. Or not w00t. I want to make a difference in the world. that is what's most clear to me right now and what is very obviously what I need to do to be happy. I have a feeling that attempting this, or trying to find ways to do this may hurt the people around me in some ways.

I want to adventure.

I decided to help the city high robotics team this year, and as soon as I get the email back from any of the three teachers in charge, I'll be able to participate. There's a lot of good things that came out of robotics, and a lot of bad. But the most memorable for me was when I drove the team robot, and smashed the hell out of Gateway Senior High School's robot. It was like absolute perfect non-violent revenge. They placed 32nd out of 36. I laugh every time I think about it.

I think when I settle down that I want a dog. Or a cat, or both. I want to have a pet that is really mine, that really likes me for me and not my mom or my siblings or my spouse or whatever. Like my pal. I kinda had one as a kid: Indie. he was the coolest collie ever. After one day of petting him to sleep and lying on the living room floor with him, he'd run out to me first and hug me with his big dog side and lick my hand and run and play and and and everything. It was really great. I'll never forget that dog, and I'm sad that he's gone. I wish that I had been there to bury him, but I wasn't. I regret that.

I talked to an old friend tonight. Toledo Girl. I don't know if she'll ever read this, but I'd like to say thank you for everything. You've really helped me as a person.

Is it strange that I enjoy the idea of throwing people as well as being thrown? Judo may be my favorite class at pitt. I want to get in shape, desperately. I want to lose all this stupid extra weight and fat and then tone my muscles and look good and feel good about how I look to myself. If I can do that I'll feel a lot better. I know I will.

Sarah drew me this awesomely awesome poster. Super awesome. check it out.

Awesome right? I really like it. She spent like a crapton of time on it. My girlfriend is super cool too. she beat fable recently. i'm very very proud of her. :-)

I think that I'm coming to the end of this rant. So until next time:

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