Socks and underpants

are all that I'm wearing. Fun right?

So I decided to give in to my impulses, and alas, I am going to go out in the snow, late at night and play guitar. I think I should plan to do this frequently. Anyways, I don't really know what to write about. I love judo, but I hated my partner this time. he was rotund, and impossible to throw, as well as a wrestler of four years. So when it came to pinning techniques, he had the obvious advantages. I however managed to beat him 3 times and then get punched in the eye and sat out the rest of the class. I enjoy being physical, but somethign is impeding me, I don't know what. I need to grow, and to get stronger. To look better.

I'm calling beans right now, to see if he's doing okay. I really want that guy to have a good life, being one of my readers is just a bonus. He's been through a lot, and I want him to see the good side of the world, instead of just the painful sad stuff. I love this weather god damnit. I love this kind of snow and bad traffic and car accidents and I really just want to go out and set things on fire and get hyper from something or another and just enjoy where I am.

but there's no one to do that with. It's not very fair. I'm finally ready to feel good again and there's no one around to share it. I guess I'll have to find my own way, like always. Maybe there's something out there for me, something or someone who will be out having a random lonely time and we'll enjoy it together, and be friends. I'm gonna stop typing before I become too tired to go.

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